Just when I was wavering a tiny bit (this morning) a little conformation texted me. It was very unexpected that Sheila would text me and say I crossed her mind in meditation.
Within hours all of the “I”s dotted and “T”s crossed. I’m on my way to a new life.
Work also started on the house today in earnest. A few days and we knock it out. I just need to keep going.
Tonight on the bathtub I was washing Adam’s hair and I was telling him how he would fuss as a baby when I washed it. Then I laughed and told him I was silly washing it every night.
Out of nowhere he tells me ” when I was a baby I slipped-ed”. I was reassuring and ask him if he was little and he was.
I’ve long suspected that something bad happened, by accident or other, in a tub of water with him. He has a visceral reaction to warm water and showers and panics if he slips in the tub. Most kids are frightened but his a wild eyes, frenzied and screaming thing. His little statement confirmed the past experience.
Then I told him how it was a little boy and drown in the pool at an amusement park. It was at Lagoon in Utah and the lifeguard pulled me out and recessitated. To this day a cold splash on my chest brings up a reaction that’s is far more panicked than it should be. I know that’s why.
Two odd ones. I was happy making noodles again. I’d gotten away from it and it felt familiar and warm.
The other was getting frames for gifts and myself. Having real pictures and getting them up seems like a thing to do now. I’d had them and today was the day to get them done.
One if the things is the piece of wall from the Altadena house where I marked Adam’s height. I had it cut out when I moved and tonight I put it in a shadow box. Love wrapping up good ideas and getting them done.
1) Christmas is up at the house. We are ready and waiting with big thanks to Stacey and Lil G for getting me going and on track. (I have been coordinating so much that I’d procrastinated and feared I’d blow it off. )
2) seeing daddy Erik for a few hours today, at his house. I had so much on my mind that I was barely sociable but he has some great ideas as the kids played. His house is looking better each visit.
3) my luck is holding steady as I zoomed Re-Store: habitat for humanity thrift/salvage. I needed a tip mount sink to redo the first bath and they had it. Not the square I’d envisioned but a new, gorgeous Kohler. ($100 score)
I’m a lucky guy.
Lady night – Adam and I falling asleep on the sofa at 9 PM. I woke up at 10 and got us both to bed. We were equally tired.
Chilling with Adam after a long day. We got Mac-n-cheese and watched a movie with chocolate kettle corn. He snuggled with me too.
I also secured the Pink Palace and decided that La Crescenta was going to help the other 2 properties.
Lasted over two hours. Many years ago I found it wonderful realtor who was such a good person I am fortunate that she became a friend.
Tonight Shelley came over and talked about all of my houses with me. Got a lot of my mind as I think about some big decisions and it was really a godsend. It was visiting with my friend but with a business agenda.
She really was here to help me, I could feel that she is not judging, and she was supportive of me in my time of need. She had no agenda and did not tell me what to do. She knows me and presented lots of data and information for me to consume. She patiently waited for me to scribbled on my own numbers and come to my own conclusions.
Because I value her I opened up my ears to listen and detached from my thinking and considered what she said.
I want to disclose something to have on the record as a point of reference and not as a brag. Because of her, I have $1 million worth of real estate. $1-Freaking-Million! My sadness is that I’m not in a place to hold onto all of it. However I will shortly be in a place where I will have positive cash flow with my little house.
Whew, here we go!
There is a new song playing in my head, and it’s just the right time again. I was pondering and moments later a new hymn popped into my head. “Fear not, I am with thee. Be not dismayed. I and I God, and will still give thee aid.
If it’s me out when that happens but it’s happened enough time that I’m starting to get used to it. Starting to accept it for the gift it is.
As my second mom was telling me last night “these are the things that we get as extra blessings since we are single-parents, to help us. “. I’ll take it – and inspirational message at this time is very, very welcome.
This is a funny post for a guy is very top 40
This is for yesterday – I was too tired to post.
It’s a tossup relay:
Submitting the final 2014 budget feels like I’m complete.
I talked to my second mom and her leukemia is very slow advancing.
Sometimes just seeing my little boy thanks my heart happy. I think about how the past few days he would tell me I’m his favorite or how I’m doing a good job. Last night was really cute because he kept saying “dad, are you on my team? “.
And his new phrase was possibly around is “you to be my helper”.
Just really hope I’m doing the right things by him.
